I’ve been in a funk lately…
unmotivated, uncreative, uninspired…tired.
I’m in a place where I’m asking some really big questions in my life that i’ve never truly allowed myself to ask or explore. I know that’s pretty vague and I’m fine with that seeing as the word, vague, explains how I feel deep down right now. I think I may be on the way out/up, normalizing…but I feel like it will be a slow process that shouldn’t be rushed if I will truly be stronger on the other side of this. I’ve always hurried my growing, tried to quiet any real internal struggle. This time I’m trying a different approach and I’m letting it simmer for awhile…working through it. I know that all sounds dramatic…I apologize.
That being said, for awhile, I didn’t feel like writing…so I didn’t. Today I have that desire and I hope it sticks around. 🙂
Although the above is true and I’ve felt like the last few months I have accomplished nothing and slid backwards on all of my goals/ideas for the year, a couple of big things came about when I stopped to take a look.
- I’ve re-enrolled in school and will be starting night classes this fall. This is a challenge that I am so excited for and think it will be so very good for me.
- I finally got the liver biopsy done that I have been dreading for a very long time. One of my goals this year was to choose to be brave and a huge part of that was being proactive about my health, especially in things I had been putting off in fear.
Obviously these things didn’t just happen. They took planning and talking and working through…which reminds me that I am indeed moving forward even if it feels slow at times.
How is that for a bit of soul bearing on this fine Sunday afternoon?
Here’s to getting back into the swing of things! 🙂